{a peek inside my journal, perhaps?}

Sometimes always, I still ask myself: why me? Out of all the other girls, why me?

I know someone could love you better than I ever will. someone will understand you better than the way I do. Someone will always be better.

I don't want to settle on the belief that you are the one for me. Are you sure that I'm the one for you? We're still teenagers: we're still exploring and finding more about ourselves. And that means there's room for more. 

A room for more people we'll meet. People whom you think will just stay for a while or for so long.

Where am I? 

The people who'll stay for a while, or am I a part of the ones who'll stay a bit longer forever?

Perhaps I'll stay forever.

In your thoughts, while you're constantly reminded that there was this girl whom you met when you were sixteen. The girl whom you thought would stay with you forever. 

I will stay.

in your thoughts, or even in your heart.

this isn't good bye.

I'm just looking at the possibilities. But trust me, babe. It scares me too.

are you scared?

If I lose you this time, there's still the future, right? 

I'll wait for you but it's okay if you won't come back. 

Maybe you already found someone better.

Someone who will make you realize that loving me is just a quarter of the love you'll be able to give.

Because you'll love her more than you've loved me.

And you'll care for her.

Don't break her heart.

I'd be glad to watch you two, as you start your days together, towards forever.

this isn't good bye.

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a break from what I usually post here.

um. mid terms next week. 

how are you? 

I'll see you soon.

xx