BONJOUR

I don't know if this counts as an actual playlist but here are some of my absolute favorite songs. Here's a compilation of songs and sunset photos from when my family and I went to Stilts, Calatagan, Batangas. The place was beautiful but unfortunately, it was a low tide when we went there.

From The 1975's second album I Like It When You Sleep For You Are So Beautiful Yet So Unaware Of It, the band still continues to mesmerize me with their unique music and poetic lyrics. I'm a huge fan of this amazing British band! 

This song by Daughter will forever remain in my playlists. It has a great message.

Urbandub's on of my favorite Filipino bands. Yes, they're Filipino! This song gives all the feels! It gives you the road trip vibe - the kind of road trip that you'll spend with your loved one. I'm not going to lie, this song reminds me of my past relationship (TMI). 

I hope you guys will give these songs a try! Let me know if you want me to make playlists, longer ones, in the future! Also, I have 10 blank discs and CD cases in here, tell me if you want to receive an actual mix tape! I've always wanted to send those.

Have a nice day! 

x Ina

As I write this, I am being sucked into a void of my emotions - a place I am uncertain of yet I can feel it dearly.

The past days include almost sleepless nights, examinations, longing, doubt, and insecurity. I know I shouldn't be writing this. Not in this place, but somewhere else. 

I cannot help it. I need to release forget all this now.

There's nothing to be stressed about, really. 

They're just exams. 

But something's always bothering me. A slither of coldness and numbness travels around my body, freezing everything as it passes my veins, as it reaches my fingertips. I don't know what it is. It's bothering me. It's creating a deep hollow inside me, waiting to be filled and satisfied. A monster. 

I always find myself thinking: how would I defeat this monster?

He's making me feel the things I would want to feel the least. 

doubt, insecurity, the feeling of being secluded.

He's being successful in bringing out the worst in me, so far. 

I would always find myself on the edge of crying. Exhaustion. Desperation, sometimes.

Being desperate in a way that I am in a great need of something that would save me from this monster inside me. Something that would make it go away. Make it leave die.

I don't want to leave home, let alone the comforts of my bed.

I would always have to drag and make myself move. I have school. 

But this monster isn't making me drift away from my priorities, of course.

I've gotten used to controlling it, saying "no" to it.

Maybe the monster got inside me just because it wants to leave a message:

"Here I am. I am ready to travel within you, eat you up slowly, destroy you, especially your emotions. But you know why I'm here, right? Fight me. Think of every possible way to make me go away. Trust me, young one, I don't want to do this. It's up to you whether you let me sink deeper in your soul until you're completely gone. I know you're brave, you can do this. I'd rather die and be peacefully gone than to stay inside you and make you feel this way. You are better than what you are now."